FATFACE

2010-04-14T14:52:00.003+08:00

heyho. its been awhile since i updated. well, lets revived this dead blog of mine for sometimes. alot of things happened this past few days. and its teaches me good things. special thanks to that someone for making me realise that this is not the end of the world yet. i just have to be patience. cos patience always pays. just believe in HIM. cos HE is always there for me. pray to HIM, believe in HIM. thats all it takes. ive realised that ive been neglecting HIM all this times and it result to this. lack of self esteem. now, that ive learned to believe, things is getting pretty much fine. :)

2010-01-30T12:18:00.001+08:00

i, norshilah binte abdul rani, hereby declare that http://ilfcukyou-iswear.blogspot.com is officially dead. RIP little bloggy. so dont bother. bye. :)

2009-12-18T17:10:00.003+08:00

10 more days to our 7th month. im am much grateful to have found you. and making you a part od my life. i cant deny, in the beginning it was very difficult. the quarrel, the fights, the threathening-to-leave. all that made us even stronger now. thanks baby. for everything. taking me in, taking care of me, and etc. no words could explain how i feel now for you. i wanna grow old with you, i wanna take care of you and your family, thats a promise. if one day, you decide to leave me, please remember that the girl you met at tiong bahru who has always been such a pain in the ass, will always love you. cos you stole her heart away. and it takes a million ways to find it back. i love you till my last breath takes you from me.

2009-11-16T13:36:00.002+08:00

its been three days. i miss you. please take care when youre in there. promise me you'll be good and you'll listen to them. two weeks is long. its pretty rough. please come home soon. im waiting for you. lasty, i love you. still.

2009-11-06T11:45:00.002+08:00

I AM J-E-A-L-O-U-S.

ask me why.

2009-10-19T18:09:00.000+08:00

on hiatus ♥

2009-10-13T13:48:00.002+08:00

cause you never treated me the way you should.

cause you never listened to me.

cause you never appreciate me.

you took me for granted.

2009-10-06T16:51:00.002+08:00

this hurts real bad. having everyone turning their back on you. my parents, cousins and now you. its just unreasonable, aint it? getting angry at me for god knows why. and when i asked, you just blow off your top out of me. what the fuck is wrong with you people? i tried talking to him, but it doesnt worked, as expected. so fuck it. ignore me for all i care. and you, of all time, why now? for god fucking sake, tell me where i went wrong? tell me. dont tell me, cos of the pictures you saw, cos its bullshits. you know it better that the one i always drool bout is you. not her. im over her. and thats that. and what the fuck? my feelings for you is damn obvious, aint it? even a stranger can tell so. all you can think is bout leaving me, but how bout me? me and my feelings? have you ever thought of it? how would i feel and stuff? you dont know shits about it cos youre not in my shoe. you dont know how it feels when someone you love dearly just leave just like that. it hurts. please spare me some thoughts. cos it aint fun nomore. so, do what you have to do. leave if you have to. but know something, i will be here, waiting.

my 18th birthday just cant get any better, here i am alone, struggling.
all messed up with my own life.
happy 18th birthday to me and not forgetting, my sweet friend, nurul amira.

2009-10-04T13:07:00.002+08:00

birthday in 3 days time.

aint looking forward to it.

dont text me birthday messages.

dont give me presents.

dont remind me that its my birthday.

i appreciate it much.

thank you.

ego gets the best of me.

2009-10-01T13:16:00.002+08:00

happy 18th birthday nur syahirah binte buhari,
i miss you. i miss us.
i miss laughing at people with you.
i miss skipping class with you.
i miss getting scolded by teachers and laughed over it.
i miss getting suspended by abraham.
i miss leaving the class early just to get in queue for nasi ayam.
i miss you.

and in 7 days time,
im 18.
xoxo.
♥

2009-09-27T00:48:00.001+08:00

♥ignore the previous post.

sui you kong pei wo he? :)

xoxo.

2009-09-26T22:42:00.003+08:00

hello,
i editted the post.
too bad for those who didnt get to read it.
bye.

2009-09-24T09:26:00.002+08:00

the truth is always ugly.

everyone getting on my nerve.
many shits happened in a day.
how cool can that be?
first, was her.
next, it was you.
i waited alone,
did you make the bloody effort to reply me?
i even got fined!
are you happy now?
have you got any idea how worried i was last night?
NO!
im agitated.
im pissed.

2009-09-22T00:14:00.003+08:00

the optimistic feeling that all is going to turn out well,
but you got it wrong.
and it got you knocked down right in your face.

2009-09-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

stop being selfish my dear friends,
concerned chiefly or only with yourself
and your advantage to the exclusion of others.
put a stop to it.

♥

2009-09-18T03:29:00.002+08:00

im currently with the two most annoying kids on earth.

k bye.

xoxo,
♥

2009-09-15T01:05:00.002+08:00

i may be impulsive.
but it annoys me when people get manipulative.
trying to get people to do what you want by influencing or deceiving them?
what the fuck are you people thinking?

2009-09-11T23:23:00.001+08:00

im sorry babygirls. i'll make it up okay.

♥ you girls.

xoxo.

cheers.

2009-09-10T22:05:00.003+08:00

Im happy, pleased, delighted, contented, thrilled, glad, blessed, blest, cheerful, jolly, merry, ecstatic, gratified, jubilant, joyous, joyful, elated, over the moon, overjoyed, blissful, rapt, blithe, on cloud nine, cock-a-hoop, walking on air, floating on air. BECAUSE im meeting my bestie tomorrow! like after so long? so i appreciate it if no one try to spoil my mood. :)
but on a darker note, i have tons of work to do. boohoo!
flash driving me crazy.

okay, im out.
cheers.
xoxo!
♥ i cant freaking wait for tomorrow.

2009-09-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

search in my mind,
trying to figure it out.
And i thought i was happy
but im having some doubt.
Think i found an answer i know i must confess.
i cant't lie,
when she left she took a part of me.
part of me want her back
but part of me can't pardon she.
call it foolish pride but shit,
who am i?

2009-09-09T21:41:00.002+08:00

pissed.
how stupid&forgetful can you be?
just my luck.

to you. im sure you gonna read this soon. im sorry for what happened just now. im sorry i texted you that way. but youre just pissing me off. we're friends for almost 6 years. and come on la, youre just a good friend. and thats all. i have enough of shits happening. and i dont need one from you or her. i dont want people to come to me, screwing up my day. fucking me upside down cos of you. and please fucking tell her that there's nothing going on between me and you. we're just good friend. im sorry.

cheers!

2009-09-09T00:07:00.001+08:00

happy 19th birthday dearest cousin.

you rock my ass off.

see you soon.

bless be.

xoxo!

2009-09-09T00:03:00.001+08:00

im dead beat. plus super shag!
im sorry but i guess i shall only upload the pictures i owe you people tomorrow.
a thousand apologies.

xoxo.
♥

2009-09-08T14:50:00.003+08:00

pardon me for the previous post. haha.
i still can feel the creeps.
ALL OVER!
only idiots like RACHEL&ATHARI couldnt feel it.
oh mama~
im freezing cold!
surprisingly, im still in school.
PROJECCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCT YO!
check out my fb tonight.
HOT PICTURE TO BE SEEN!

cheers!
xoxo. ♥

2009-09-07T23:22:00.001+08:00

Look at this picture

You probably not know that you might have Trypophobia.

Trypophobia is an intense fear when looking at things which have cluster of holes ,which can results in an all-over itchy feeling and general uneasyness.

Gross, i have one.

pride and ego.

2009-09-07T21:43:00.003+08:00

We all have been there done that. We all have at one point of time or another found out little gritty bits of information about our friends and acquaintances and start talking about it. We also have at one point of time or another kept tabs on the lives of people in our past. Undeniably, it's the innate desire to know and the curiosity within all of us which drives us to do the things we do.

And then there are some of us who can't seem to get past our own egos and see the mistakes we have done. There are some of us who chooses to appear victimized when in actuality they are the perpetrators. It is ironic how some of us do the things that they accuse others of doing.

God has made some people blind by birth. People have made themselves blind by their perceptions, pride and ego.

2009-09-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

i feel so tired and shag. i slept at 5plus am and wakes up at 745am. i hope it will rain tonight. fuuuuuh! confirm syiok. anyway, im full. very very full. yes, i didnt fast today. so today, rachel lim mei ping keep stuffing me with food. and i mean it. did i mention that rachel is in love with mushrooms? haha. she used to hate mushrooms alot. but thanks to me and janelle, shes in love with it. :)

anyway, im craving for alot of food. i shall list down here. any kind soul care to get it for me, feel free to do so okay?
-FRIED CARROT CAKE. (WHITE ONE PLEASE)
-CHANGI NASI LEMAK!
-FAMOUS AMOS COOKIES.
-ICE KACHANG!
-BULGOGI. *DROOOLS!
-KIMCHI. (I HAVE ALOT OF THE INSTANT ONES AT HOME, BUT I WANT THE CUP NOODLE ONE) (:
-CHOCOLATE FONDUE.
-MANGO SALAD!
-SAKAE SUSHI. (SOMEONE AGREED TO ACCOMPANY ME LOR, BUT I DONT THINK IT WILL HAPPENED NOW)
-SLICEEEEEEEE! (OREA PURLEEEESE)
-711 MR SOFTEE(SUPER HARD TO FIND NOW)

and the list goes on......
im excited and looking forward to tomorrow. cos im meeting bestbest cousins tomorrow. yay! and maybe meet faris before going home tomorrow. so yah. im outta here.
cheers!
xoxo! <3

2009-09-06T22:24:00.002+08:00

i just had this funny conversation with my cousin through msn. i was complaining to her about her aunty(my mum). my mum have been nagging. cos im like super lazy at home. which i cant deny. i dont do housework bla bla bla. i told my cousin this.

me: gua mcm nk bilang aje lu punya makcik ni uh dok.(i like wanna tell your aunty this)
gua lesbian uh ma, lesbian tk buat keje rumah. (imma lesbian, lesbian dont do housework)
lesbian tk suka buat keje rumah. (lesbian hate doing housework)
her: gi bilang uh. (go tell her that uh)

and it got me thinking. how will my mum react if she finds out that i am not straight. haha. i just cant imagine.

anyway, i have this issue of talking in "minahish/matrepish" language. their accent. all cause of the malay show i watched today. chao chicken! dok, lu, gua, mangkok, balak, bla bla bla. annoying shit. haha. and net just told me that she havent bathe the whole day. and look at the time now. its like what, 1040? omg! haha. kla, got to go. my momo waiting for me in pet society. go check her out in her new power ranger costume. cute. just like the owner. okay enough. im done.
xoxo! <3

i'll miss you.

2009-09-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

The seed of doubt, secrets and questionable behavior
Did nothing to salvage what was once in favor
Questions in abundance, answers in short supply
made for a heartfelt, gut-wrenching goodbye.

So be gone from my heart, my mind and my thoughts
Time is all needed to heal and move forward
No time for regrets, remorse or self pity
Life goes on no matter how dreadful we are feeling.

2009-09-05T22:32:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt the emptiness in you? its that little void. despite being surrounded by amazing friends, constant laughter and the many hugs and kisses from everyone. and when youre alone, you realise that there is still a missing spark. that vacuous feels.

and i immerse myself to reading and that need to find that little missing spark is gone.
i feel lost.

2009-09-05T13:22:00.002+08:00

hush littlebird, youre gonna be fine, i promise. tell this to yourself, she dont need you. she's better off without you. stop being selfish littlebird. no matter how it hurts, just stay strong. this is the best for you and her.

2009-09-05T02:37:00.001+08:00

and little redbird has finally freed her ponyo.

blogs.

2009-09-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

a blog is for you to blog. a tagboard is for people to tag you.
so tell me why the fuck do you have a blog if you cant blog about your friends and your love ones?
why the fuck do you even have a tagboard if people cant tag you?
stupid isnt it?
if you fucking dont want people to read your blog, private it.
but putting your blog on private, are just simply stupid uh.
why would you have a blog if you dont want people to read?
might as well you keep those little personal diary.
im talking sense here.

2009-09-04T09:55:00.002+08:00

i didnt even close my eyes the whole fucking night.

shagggggggggg!

i hope today is a better day.

p.s/i'll be gone even before you realise it.

xoxo.

2009-09-04T02:46:00.002+08:00

see this guy up here. he is sadly my kick-ass, irritating, idiotic bestfriend, FARIS. we're not as close w used to be but i know youre just one call away. i feel better talking to you just now. thanks for listening to my crap. :D well, bout your gf. cheer up okay. im sure she dont mean anything. just be patient. i hope to see you soon. and i hope you'll keep to yourself what ive told you just now. and if it really happened, i'll miss you. dont worry, there always msn, email, fb, tagged. meet me soon you horny bastard. and my next chill, jangan lupe. hahahaha. :D

2009-09-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

im back, bitches. haha. i decided not to ditch my blogger. sorry for being so fickle. anyway, i have less than 5 weeks to my birthday. :D which mean i have 2 months to still decide. im looking forward to tomorrow. cause im meeting net. if you guys wondering who, its this girl here.

she's the ponyo i was referring to from the previous post. cute right? haha. i know. my ex mah. did i mention i have a new fetish? yes yes. fetish for fedaros. just like the one in the picture. and that explain why i put up the picture. anyway, my uncle, aunty, and cousins have been stalking my blog. which mean they might know that im not straight. haha. well. who cares. i dont give a shit to it also. i hope tomorrow plan will go as plan. *finger crossed. well, yah. stay tuned for my next update. :D

cheeeeeers.

xoxo.

2009-07-29T14:50:00.000+08:00

i love you, ponyo.

2009-07-11T16:01:00.002+08:00

since everybody making a big big fuss on me privatising my blog, ive decided to put it back to living mode. okay, the reason why i put it to private because simple, first, i got nothing to blog about. second, my lappy is down. so people, get rid of the thoughts that i private my blog cos i dont want you to read and whatever shit. cos its nothing like what you think. anyway, someone has been up to no good. i know you'll be reading this so yah this is for you. hello. which part of me look like a player to you? seriously, you want me to tell the whole world what you did to me? let them judge whose the player here? nk? but please uh. i got a life. unlike you. i saw your fb. and its damn obvious youre refering to me. wait wait. let get this straight. who the fuck dump who now? and now, when im enjoying my life, you came back giving me all your bullshits? what the fuck do you even want from me? i know youre unhappy about the "open relationship" thingy. so what? does it even matter now? im happy with net, and youre happy with her. fair enough? and please uh. net has nothing to do with this shit okay. so leave her out of this.

2009-07-01T10:57:00.001+08:00

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2009-07-01T10:09:00.005+08:00

friends dont text each other imy, ily. friends dont call each other dar dar or whatever shit. i know i have no rights to get jealous. but why youre doing this to me? you told me your friends did this did that for you. even your ex did something for you? you know how does it feel? it hurt badly okay. cos i cant do anything. you told me you wanted to take the duck tour thingy badly. i did made reservation for it. i wanted to surprise you. but now what? it wont be even happening. all thanks to me. for last night. i drink and got fucking drunk. i talked crap. you shouted at me. you know how it fucking hurt? ive been keeping everything to myself. and its killing me slowly. i asked you ytd what am i to you? is it so hard to just answer a simple question like that. im not assured bout us. im still hanging stagnant here. i told you whatever i wanted to ytd thru msges. but you dont fucking give a shit to it? you dont even bother. i just wanna thank you for all the memories you left in me. ive never regretted knowing you, even if youre just a passerby in my life. i'll leave everything to you. you decide what you want. but just dont leave me hanging not knowing anything. happy 21st birthday. take care. and to you guys, im sorry i didnt listen.

have you ever loved me?
do i even mean anything to you?
all along, were you true to me?
regret?

and who coming with me tonight? and please let me just drink tonight okay babes? i just wanna forget bout everything for a day. and who wanna go with me to the duck tour? on me! i want someone that can swim please. just in case the "duck" sink, atleast i have someone to save me. okay enough said. im going MIA. so you guys wont listen much from me. dont text, dont call me. i'll contact you guys if there's a need to okay. and im changing number soon. and im getting a new phone. mummy, no china's phone pleaseeeeeeee!

2009-06-22T21:30:00.001+08:00

am i being a bitch?

2009-06-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

there's still tons of pictures,
but i just cant be bothered.
upload soon okaaay?
weeeeeeee.
anyway anyway,
focus on what i wear?
hahahaha.
mcm nk gy kedai mama sia. (like wanna go mama shop)
lol. i know.
just cant be bothered to dress up.
sape mau gy tgk kn?
right?

im out.
update soon.

xoxo.
i miss francis vanessa tabhata.
:D

2009-06-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

cute kn dier?
i know.
weeeeeeeeeee!

omg omg!
i got freaking sunburn on my back.
it hurts big time(word mcm kenal or what?).
hahahaha.
hmmmmmm,
i saw someone's blog. HE freaking blog about me.
but what can i do? its his blog. so yah.
i know HE'll read this post.
all i can say is,
stop hoping.
and please tell those girls the fucking whole story and ask them to get a life okay?
you know what i mean.
thank you.
take care.

xoxo.
psssssst! baby i miss you!

2009-06-19T13:21:00.001+08:00

I never thought I'd be in love like this.
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip.
And you came in and knocked me on my face.
Feels like in I'm a race.
But I already won first place.

xoxo.

2009-06-15T17:16:00.003+08:00

I've always thought magicians are cool. i always thought their magic trick was cool. not until that day. sigh sigh. they played with my feelings. cheat my feelings. my whole heart broke into pieces. and I'm just exaggerating. hahaha. i saw this show in AXN. its about this particular guy, " the mask magician", he was actually the one who broke the magician code. and now i can say MAGICIANS are big big big big fat liar. their trick was just a trick. I'm the only fool that can actually fall for their big big big big fat liar, trick. and i. norshilah binte abdul rani declare/swear that i wont believe or even get excited with all their bullshit tricks.
DOESN'T LOOK FANTASTIC AT ALL,
ITS JUST ILLUSION.
anyway, life has been great with people around me. cousins, friends, family, and of course you. you know i know. i know you don't know. okay, lame. hahaha. anyway, yeah, I'm loving my life. and there's tons of pictures i have yet ton upload.
I'll upload them when i'm free.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I'm out yo!
bye.

xoxo,
miss me people.

im crazy for you, just like a fool.
im crazy for you and you know it too.

2009-06-10T00:58:00.003+08:00

to a stalker:

you can stalk me all you want,
cos i don't really give a shit.

it rhymes right.
its from from unstoppable song anyway.

-if there's anything more than i love you,
then thats for you.
<3

xoxo.

2009-06-08T20:52:00.001+08:00

if there anything more than i love you,
thats for you.
aww,
im sweeeeeeeet kn?

lets go LOW LOW LOW.

2009-06-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

exams over. (:
weeeeeeeee~

random:
its been almost a month since i club.
i miss clubbing. ):
so this Sunday,
just see.
im gonna get my ass on the dancefloor.
and partay all night.
weeeeeeeeeeee~
im super hyped up.
hope there will be tons of cute girls.
weeeeeeeeeeeee~
bye people.

xoxo.

2009-06-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

i miss some part of my life.

lost.

2009-06-03T21:28:00.002+08:00

i seriously find it ridiculous.
first,
you said it was fine to you.
then,
you made a big fuss bout it.
whats up with you?
tell me exactly what you want,
pleaseeeee.

cousins.

2009-06-01T12:17:00.007+08:00

stole from mar's. (:

pictures above are taken on saturday(family day thingy)&sunday(chalet).
anywaaaaaaay, the crocs cute right?
so greeeeeeeeeeeen.
me like.
chiaoz.

xoxo.

2009-05-26T19:54:00.002+08:00

random picture took on mondaaaaay.
stole from rachel blog!

heartshape. guess which hand is mine?

i look disgusting.

my sexaaaaaaay legs. -,-

ohhhhhhhh!

my lips like sugaaaaaaaaaaar.
my lips like sugaaaaaaaaaaar.
so call me your sugaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.
so call me your sugaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.

2009-05-25T11:10:00.002+08:00

it hurts.
and i cant stop crying.
thanks.

OMFG!

2009-05-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

my heart tore a million pieces when i found this in the
net.(not really la actually)

omg! my baby is a GAYYYYYYYYYYYY! fucking shit!
but whatever it is,
LOVE IS BLIND.
hahahahahahahaha~
he's still HOT!
muacks muacks!
love you baby!

2009-05-21T19:59:00.006+08:00

kris allen.
so congrats KRIS ALLEN for winning this year A.I.
but i still prefer ADAM LAMBERT.
he's hot! and i love his voice.

my baby.
HOT!HOT!HOT!

p/s:i woke up super early just to watch the results live.

2009-05-18T21:20:00.002+08:00

sick & dying.

2009-05-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

tagged by hyraaaah.
1. Besides lips,where is your favourite spot to get kiss.?

- my forehead. duh~

2. How do you feel when you wake up in this morning?

- sick&shag.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with.?

- cant remember.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled.?

- ermm, 50/50. hahaha.

5. Would you ever donate blood.?

- ermm, yes. im serious.

6. Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex.?

- yes.

7. Do you want someone dead.?

- not really. im not that mean.

8. What does the last message say.?

- cant be bothered to check.

9. What are you thinking right now.?

- erm, nothing?

10. Do you wish someone with you right now.?

-ermm, no.

11. What time you went to bed last night.?

- i didnt/cant really sleep last night.

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're wearing now.?

- KL. (:

13. Is someone in your mind.?

- no.

14. Who was the last person who texted you.?

- janelle.

15. 10 people tagged to do this quiz.

- athari

- rachel

- selina

- janelle

- hyraaah

- phyl

- eddie oh

- ridwan

- mariam

- dyla

16. Who is 2 having relationship with.?

- she's single.

17. Is 3 male or female.?

- in between,LOL.kidding.feMALE

18. If 7 & 10 get together, would it be a good thing.?

- erm, no idea.

19. What is 1 studying about.?

- multimedia.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with 5.?

- its been a long time.

21.Is 4 single.?

- nope.

22. Say something about 2.

- nice?

23. What do you think about 3 & 6 being together.?

- hell, no! indescribable.

24. Describe 9.

- my cute cousin. (:

25. What will you do if 6 and 7 fight.?

- ermm, no. they dont even know each other.

26. Do you like 8.?

- yeaah. (:

2009-05-18T10:30:00.001+08:00

and yes.
im sick.

2009-05-14T20:38:00.002+08:00

some random pic i took yesterday out of boredom.

love.

2009-05-10T22:06:00.004+08:00

celebrated ain's plus ayah birthday comes muthersday at ecp today.
had fun. enjoyed.
i love my cousins.
bye.

2009-05-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

i felt disgusted when i browse through someone fb account.
i mean the pictures and everything.
are all disgusting.

conversation i had with athari.
funny!

A. says:

tuh pasal la.

chiken backside.

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

your quiz! lagi mcm chicken backside

answers like very close

A. says:

thats the trick..

there is one part, what athari owned.

gameboy, radio, camera, pager.

itu kekek siak!

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

tu uhh

gameboy zaman nenek aku sia

A. says:

tuh pasl la.

dulu, aku dapat gameboy je happy giler siak.

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

same2

the one with colour

A. says:

lagilagi dapat main game power ranger.

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

fav game

MARIO

bodoh!

A. says:

thats why/

discman pon!

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

ah aa

A. says:

inght??

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

nnt mcm excited beli cd2

pikir cool uh dulu

hahahaha

A. says:

tu uh.

abe burn lagu lagi.

hahahahahha!

shilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah g ワンダーガールズ says:

hahahaha

kental siol

A. says:

thas why.

very kental!

2009-05-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

so today i went to the anugerah stupid thingy!
imagine!
me in some stupid malay competition.
weird or what.
i went there to support/accompany my cousin la.
its not like what you think.
i woke up at around 8/9?
fucking shit.
just for that? tkpela.
once in a while.
anyway, two of my cousins didnt make it thru.
but still, good job guys.
saw some familiar faces.
just didnt even bother to say hi.
hahaha. went to cousin place to karaoke.
i l0veeeeee singing!(p.s-i sound better than a frog kay)
woooohooooo!
then, phyl texted me.
asked me to accompany her to the anugerah thingy la.
-.-
being such a nice sweet friend. i said yes.
met her, trained back down to simei.
i tell you. the weather was being a bitch.
i was sweating like fuck all the way.
even when im inside the mall.
anyway anyway, i wanna be judge!
my new ambition.
mcm best sia. kutuk kutuk people.
hahahaha.
so, after the whole thing.
i went home straight.
and phyl!
it was nice meeting you!
DAYTONAAAAAAAAA NEXT TIME YO!

xoxo.
p.s- i can do better than you, bitch!

2009-05-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

you messing with the wrong bitch, SLUT!
i know you'll be reading this.
got the cheeks to call me bitch,
when you yourself behave worst then a bitch.
kaninacb.
oh sorry. i dont use weird lang to scold people.
hahaha.
you asked me to see myself in the mirror?
oh well i did.
atleast i dont freak out when i see myself.
i think you should,
oh wait,
you dont dare cause you are scared of your own looks.

2009-05-01T00:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday:
arena was fine.
zouk was annoyingly fun.
shag/tired.

pictures will be upload soon.
when i get it from wawa,jelly,jan that is of cos.

ive kissed a girrrrrrrrrrrrrl,
and i liked it~~

xoxo.

2009-04-26T21:01:00.005+08:00

camwhoring moments with cousins.
fyi, shes just beside me.
cute right? i know.

2009-04-23T21:03:00.001+08:00

i wanna learn sign language.
im obsessed with it.

2009-04-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

do you believe in ghost?
well, for me.
after yesterday incident,
i believe it do exist.

2009-04-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

nobody(english version)
cool shit.
anyway, it not sang by wondergirls. (:

2009-04-20T22:35:00.001+08:00

you suppose to be here to cheer me up when im down.
you suppose to be always here for me.
but where were you?
fuck it.

2009-04-20T20:52:00.010+08:00

overdue sentosa pic. (:
enjoy!

2009-04-19T20:57:00.001+08:00

sad and dissapointed.
why's/but's.
yet to be asked.

2009-04-18T00:58:00.001+08:00

happy birthday lovely cousin.
this year 23rd or 24th bday uh?
lupe yo.
anyway, stay as cheerful/gile as always.
love you.

xoxo.
tons of kisses/hugs.

2009-04-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

can any kind soul buy me a push pops?
not the normal ones.
the cool one.
jumping push pops,
ring push pops, triple power push pops,
the glow in the dark push pops.
i want! i want! i want!
puuuuurrrrrrleeeeeeessssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i swear i'll love you if you get it for me. (:

2009-04-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

someone dedicated this song to me.awwww!

2009-04-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

im having gastric.
fuck.fuck.fuck.

p.s:say hello to sentosa.

2009-04-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

Why do girls bitch/gossip so much?!

they're so insecure with themselves that they have to bolster their ego by slagging off everyone who could be slight competition to them.
To feel superior-When people are feeling bad about themselves, they sometimes think they’ll feel better if there were someone worse off than they are. It’s like, it’s okay being near the bottom, as long as they’re not actually on the bottom. The easiest way for them to make sure someone else is on the bottom is to make up a rumor that puts him or her there.
To feel like part of the group
If everybody else is gossiping or spreading rumors, you might feel you have to do the same thing in order to fit in. When you’re “in on the secret,” you’re in the group. Unfortunately, the person who the gossip or rumor is about is usually left out of the group for the same reason that you’re let into it.
For attention
When you know a secret that nobody knows, or are the first person in your group to hear a rumor, it can make you the center of attention. A rumor or piece of gossip is sometimes like money; telling it to people is like buying their attention, if only for a few minutes. You might even save up a really scandalous rumor, waiting for the right moment to blab so you get the maximum amount of attention
for it.
For control or power
Certain people always want to be in control and at the top of the ladder. You probably know at least one person who needs to be the leader, say what goes, and make all the decisions. When people are at the top of the popularity scale, or are determined to climb higher, one way they do this is by reducing the “status” of another person. Spreading rumors and gossip is one of the main ways people reduce another person’s status, especially among girls. It’s like one caveman beating up another caveman for control of the tribe…only it’s done with cruel whispers and petty remarks instead of fists.
Out of jealousy or a need for revenge
If you’re jealous of someone’s looks, popularity, or money, you might gossip about that person in order to hurt him or her. If you feel that someone’s done something bad to you, or deserves to be hurt, making up a rumor might satisfy your sense of justice.
Out of boredom
Did you know that in many studies, this was the #1 reason why young people say they spread rumors? Sometimes, a period where everyone is happy and getting along just seems kind of…dull. Spreading juicy dish might shake things up a bit, or get two people to start a fight, and that would make life a little more exciting. All those tabloid newspapers and TV shows full of celebrity gossip are pure proof that rumors are a popular form of entertainment.

2009-04-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

im sickk and tired of school.

2009-04-11T17:36:00.002+08:00

You have been tagged in this, write the names down of the 21 people then answer the questions.
Say you’re guessing if you don’t know, but at least guess on all of them.
After doing this, tag your 21 friends to do the same:

1.janelle
2.athari
3.selina
4.rachel
5.joanna
6.janus
7.eddie
8.mariam
9.dyla
10.Q
11.elf
12.aces
13.sasa
14.wawa
15.heikel
16.raz
17.hyrah
18.amira
19.ridwan belo
20.meryl
21.suffian

How did you meet 7?
(eddie) ite.

What would you do if you had never met 15?
(heikel)i would have never be friends w 14(wawa).

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
( janelle/suffian) omg cant imagine.HAHAH.

Have you ever seen 17 cry?
(hyrah) yup

Would 3 and 6 make a good couple?
(janus/selina) hmmm, maybe

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
(rachel/raz) if yes, they must be a lesbian.

Describe 19.
(ridwan belo) irritating mtfxrs.

Do you like 2?
(athari) love him t the max manzx

Do you think 21 is attractive?
(suffian) hmmm, not at all.

What is 5's favourite colour?
(joanna)omg idk.red?black?

When was the last time you talked to 9?
(dyla) last week?

What language does 11 speak?
(elf) alien lang? haha.

Who is 13 going out with?
(sasa) haha. like i know

What year is 16 born in?
(raz)1991. duh!

What is 14's favourite music?
(wawa)hmmmm,trance?rnb?

Would you ever date 7?
(eddie)lols no!

Would you ever date 3?
(selina) i would love to.

Where does 18 live?
(amira)tamp.

What is the best thing about 4?
(rachel)shes good in gaming?

What would you like to tell 10 right now?
(Q) i got a..........

What is the best thing about 20?
(meryl) she can speak malay?

Have you ever kissed 1?
(janelle) lol yes.

What's the best memory you have of 9?
(dyla)shes nice?

When's the next time you're going to see 4?
(rachel)mon?

Is 2 pretty?
(athari)what do u think?of cos he is.

What was your first impression of 15?
(heikel)small?

How did you meet 3?
(selina) ite?

Is 5 your best friend?
(joanna)yes. imissher.

Have you seen 18 in the last month?
(amira)nope i guess.

When was the last time you saw 16?
(raz)last month?

Have you been to 21's house?
(suffian)duh. every week.

When's the next time you'll see 10?
(Q)idk. ):

Are you really close to 6?
(janus)used to.

Have you been to the movies with 4?
(rachel)duhh!

Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
(mariam)never!

What would 12 write on your wall?
(aces) hi buddy ?

Would you give 19 a hug?
(ridwan belo)eew, no?

When have you lied to 13?
(sasa)never.

Do you know a secret about 11?
(elf) she is in love w ...... (:

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
(amira/aces) NO LINK

Has 1 met your mother?
(janelle)hm, nope.

im super lazy to tag everyone, so if youguys sees this, do it okay.

2009-04-10T01:44:00.002+08:00

camp was okay. nothing much happened. made friends w quite a number of people. so there nothing much i can say. hmmm, anyway, i went out w my new friend yesterday. met them at tamp. then next stop was bugis. catched a movie there. 'too fast too furious'. it was okay. i cant concentrate on the show. only elf knows why. hahaha. shhhhh! *secret* and anyway, new friends are all fun. today was fine, so bye.

p.s: thats how i wished too.

2009-04-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

guess who's back?
back again?
shilaaaaaaaaaaah's back.
tell a friend.

2009-04-05T23:13:00.011+08:00

heyheyhey.
yesterday at jb was a blast. had tons tons of fun. so let the pictures talk aite?

2009-04-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

its nice isnt it? anyway. hello. hmmmmm. was bloghopping again. as usual. i realised that almost all the blog has the same song, "nobody". its a korean song by wondergirls. its a nice song though, but i got so irritated when almost all the blog i've went, its all playing the same bloody song. hmmmm. anyway, i got camp on this monday. im excited and so looking forward to it. im going there as student helper. and yah, i also entered some "amazing race". i just sign up without reading. i got home and read the brochures or whatever it is called. its falls on the 18th. i was like omfg! its kak siti bdae. but will try my best to meet her or what after it. so wish me luck for the event yeah? hahaha. hmmm. anyway, i went to cs just now. together with cousin. we gossiped like alot. talked bout "bds". and guess what? my craving for cs's mushroom has finally fufilled. its been 3 weeks since was craving for it. much things happened today. too much drama i can say. at last, she made her mind and she left us. i felt sad not for myself but for mama. i know exactly how she felt. so fuck her. and if youre reading this, just so you know, youre strangers to me now. i meant what i said okay. bye.

xoxo,
shilaaaaaaaah.

2009-04-02T12:44:00.003+08:00

im feeling sexaaaaaaaaaaay~
aint she hot?
looking at her makes me go gugugaga.
lady gaga is hottttttt!
*wide smile*

to you;
we went searching for you high low yesterday.
mama text you and what you said?
you lied cos mama is angry with you?
what the fuck?
that doesnt give you any reason to lie.
you went too much this time.
im not saying that im a good obedient fucking bitch uh.
but atleast i know my limits.
you? have you ever think before doing something?
and please, this is the fucking second time youre doing this to us.
you as a sister should show me a bloody good example,
guide me through.
but see, where the fuck are you?
its been fucking almost a week.
please use your brain and think.
dont let your fucking "LOVE" blind you.
think of mama and papa.
have some pity on them.

xoxo,
shilaaaaaah.

2009-04-02T01:00:00.002+08:00

i swear my fingers are killing me. its fucking itchy. fuck. i know it sounds funny but, im allergic to alcohol. everytime i drink, i tend to get rashes. double fuck.

2009-03-31T21:27:00.002+08:00

im pissed.
pissed with everything.
i dont get your point on why there's a need for you to hide it from me.
tell me why the fucking fuck in the first place you bought in for me?
its so annoying.

p.s- i miss clubbing. ):

xoxo,
shilaaaaaah.

2009-03-30T15:44:00.004+08:00

Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)

Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hit the flo (she hit the floor)
Next thing u kno
shawty got low low low low low low low low.

p.s-this song is stuck in my mind.

hey earthlings. afternoon.(:
currently, im at my aunt's place now.
stayed over for two days to be exact.
well. it was pretty fun. went jb with cousins /auntys/uncle and mummy the first day.
did some groceries shopping there.
yes, you may find us cheapskate, but its so called our family "routine".
we will go jb almost every week.
and went there to top up petrol for my aunty's car. we fucking save alot okay.
take ciggrates for an example, in singapore they cost like what?
10[SINGDOLLARS]bucks.
there you can get at around 6[RM]bucks.
and if you were to convert RM to SINGDOLLARS, it will be like 3bucks per pack?
how cool can that be?
see the big diffrent? things there are much cheaper then things here.
seriously. so in conclusion, go do your groceries shopping at jb.
you can save quite alot. and anyway, ive been bloghopping for the past half and hour.
and all i can say is LIFE IS FULL WITH DRAMA.
our life is the story and we're the actors and actresses.
and most of the post ive read have no happy endings. and me too, dont believe in happy endings.
so i say a big NONO to fairytales.

xoxo, shilaaaaaaaah.

2009-03-29T02:08:00.002+08:00

hey hello. its been since ive updated my blog. so yaaaah.

i have some tips/words on how to "cope" if your STRAIGHT friend falls for you when she knows youre ATTACHED and a L.

MISTRESS MAYHEM SAYS-Good friends, yeah right! Staight/Gay she obviously wants you and you know it. Lucky you. Sounds like you don't have a problem to me. It sounds like you've had a gift fall out of the sky. I, for one, would grab onto it with both hands and cling on to whatever feels good. Let her know that her wish is your command... and you'll be granting wishes by the dozen before you know it.
Go on be a devil and get on with it!!

VIRGIN MARIE SAYS-Of course she likes the attention and messing with your head. It's power, and aren't we all attracted by the thought of having a little power over someone? Particularly someone we like and admire? It might be that she doesn't realise that playing like this could easily put your friendship in jeopardy. As I see it, if you really don't think she'll 'go there', then you've got two choices. Ask her to stop and then resolutely ignore any further teasing, or stay away for a while until it cools. Often a little distance and time will break the mood.

put that aside,
anyway, have you guys feel being used? thats what im feeling now. im being "used" not only to a person. but to alot of people around me. they just come when they desperately in need. and i hate it.
and, im very pissed by someone related to me. real close to me. and its a she. she's fucking in her own world. to her, he come first before us. i know how the old ones feeling. this is not the first time. and please, wake up la. dont let him blind you. p.s we love you.

xoxo,
shilaaaaah. (:

2009-03-23T20:45:00.002+08:00

arena. (:

im just plain lazy to update nor post pictures of the KL trip.
cos it will take a thousands years.
will do so if i have the feeling to.
but, you guys can go to either my family's blog, mariam's blog or dyla's blog.
so yah.
bye.
(:

2009-03-13T23:17:00.003+08:00

hello~
im excited. fucking excited.
im gg off to KL tmr.
woohoooo~
miss me people.
but, i know you'll miss me.
huhu!
and anyway,
ill be back on tuesday or maybe wednesday.
take care and get high.
wooohooooo.
anyway, my new blogkin nice right?
i know.
well. yah.
bye people.

xoxo,
shilaaaaaah (:

2009-03-10T22:40:00.003+08:00

4 more days and im off.
wooohoooo~
bye spore, hello KL.
i know its pretty lame to get excited over it.
cause its just KL. i know.
but the things that make me excited is my lovely cousins.
im gg there with them. cool shit.
its been a loooooong time since we really went overseas together.
woohooo~
bye people.
suck my dick, eventho i dont have a dick.
okay lame shilaaaaaaaah.
bye.

2009-03-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

smiley piercing.
im getting MY smiley soon.
hopefully before school reopen.
woohoooo~

and please,
i dont give a fuck to it.

2009-03-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

i screwed my phase test just now.
i just stoned when i got the paper.
fuck.
say bye to poly yo.
bye.

[editted yo]
took from ♥sunnnnnnnneh!.

A new friend called MOON

Today i got a new friend.
My friend is called moon.
Moon is quite friendly and it's wonderful to know moon.
Here's a riddle between a sun (that's me) and a moon.
Try to guess if you have the brain.
Why can't sun and moon be together?
If you think you can solve this riddle,
go ahead and write the answer onto my tagboard called the spotlight.

[editted]
hello, moon aka shilaaaaaaaah here.
im helping my friend,sun here to blog.
actually i dont know what to blog yo.
hmmmmmm.
okay let me give you guys abit of clue to sun's riddle upthere.
think yo!
why moon and sun cant be together?
the answer is simple.
its related to science.
so what you guys waiting yo?
get your ass off here and get your brain cracking!
okaaaaaay go.
lastly,
which do you prefer sun or moon?
i know its random.
but just wanna know yo.
hahaha.
LOL.

xoxo,
shilaaaaaah aka moon.

2009-03-03T23:24:00.005+08:00

3rd of march 2009 10.41pm

Today is hell fun seeing all my classmate kissing each other , but of cause i was also sabo-ed by
Hazim that i have to kiss terence the cute little boy . HAHA ! Ok la , quite nice . Hahaha , Did
nothing much in mr. govin class , came late for his class and when i reached class he was alrdy
teaching halfway through . Well I guess its okie , since his module will not be graded and I hope
I wont be using this software next time in my job >< . Ok enough of that , after his lesson , went canteen and slack with janelle and co. Was laughing about one of our classmate . shall not tell you guys , go and have a guess ! :DD Then my classmate , zac and co they all play what DARE game , Zac came over and kneel down to Athari and proposed to him. Funny ideas came out from them , soon went back class for lesson and we played DARE , every tuesday we seems to be playing this game . haha , well my classmate truly love kissing with each other :X I hope we stay like that even after ITE ended for us , school ended thus i came up with this poem : Wind's blowing & shadow's fading , relationship stucked on my mind , leaving nothing but shit behind , Hope everything's gone by morning , So no one will be asking .

credits to:terence (for typing out everything)
[editted]

and so after school, met faaaaaaaaaaan for lunch at tong seng.

off to suntec, chilled. home!

pictures!

too lazy to really edit the pictures. so yupp.

p.s: i got a fucking life,bitches!unlike you.

i bloody took 1 an a half hour to post this fucking entry.

2009-03-01T12:53:00.002+08:00

im sorry to all my chinese, cause this post will be in malay.
wanna know the meaning ask me straight.

to sha:
hello. who the fuck carik sape dulu skrg? matair kau yg carik aku.
korg buat crite psl aku, kau fikir aku suke pe sia?
aku buat black magic la itulah inilah. kau pikir aku nk diam jek pe?
kau pikir balik uh. after that incident kt mac aku ader carik kau lagi tk?
tkde kn? pakai otak la sha. sape yg tk move on skrg? korg! bukan aku.
and buat aper aku nk kacau korg lagi? aku da de matair sia. aper lagi yg korg tk puas ngan aku?
and bile mase aku ckp aku maseh syg kau?
and post2 aku ader letak name sape2? tkde kn? asl korg terase sia? sebab mmg btol aper aku ckp kn? sialah. korg smue umur brape sia? bbual smue tk pakai otak. tk fikir. sialah. tuari yg korg break, aku jgk korg salahkn? kau blang aku uh aper aku buat? aper sebab aku call kau tanye psl black magic thingy tu? korg pikir aku gile sgt pe smpi nk black magic black magic smue. zaman bile sia? and ader aku and kwn2 aku tuduh kau psl tagboard aku? tkdekn? sialah. get the facts right first before saying anything. and please use the fucking brain of yours and think! please uh!
aku da tk kuase nk layan korg. seriously!
kalau kau maseh tk puas lagi, kau ader no aku kn? call aku. okay? and please grow up kay.
bye!

2009-02-23T20:58:00.001+08:00

and also.
me and my cousins just made a blog.
so do visit. thank you.
♥FAMMMILYYY.

2009-02-23T20:50:00.002+08:00

hey. my blog is so dead. i know.
anyway, many shits happened this past few days.
im so pissed off. people making up stories about me.
i do black magic, i got some stupid voodoo dolls thingy.
what the hell? and hello, you're not in a fairytales or whatever shit.
and what on earth makes you think that im like that.
you believe their lies, so its your fucking problem.
so dont come to me and tell me shits, bitch!
and hello! im not pestering or even harassing you bitches.
you're the one who come to me and the one who is bugging me.
fuckers with no life.

2009-02-13T21:23:00.001+08:00

you're pathetically useless.
and you have the bloody damn cheek to tell me this fucking shit?
you just know how to irritates me, don't you?

2009-02-09T20:06:00.005+08:00

photos were taken yesterday.
so, yup. bye. haha.

2009-02-04T14:20:00.003+08:00

it seem so easy for you to let go. but its the hardest thing for me.im glad, because youre happy.

im fucking upset. so shut up and fuckkkkkkkkkk off! screw you!

2009-02-02T21:19:00.006+08:00

picture above were taken at sakae sushi.

pictures above were taken at marina barrage.

imma edited to the song.
SUSHI NYIEN SUSHI NYIEN,
SIN NYIEN HOW,
HU NIEN NIEN.

and rachel,
please dont fart in the train!
haha.

replies to tag:
rzk: rawwwzark~LOLOLL~
z: yes. ive kissed a girl. and i LOVE it. (:
mel: you like it? i can do it for you. HAHA.
heikel kecik star: HELLLO!
outsider: haha. okay. thanks for the advice.
janus: ill post bout you when we meet okay! (: